I am a mental-mess today. Emotional, tired, trying to simply stay sane until time for bed. Some days I am pleased with my progress, even though slow, and then other days I get so frustrated I could scream. Today is one of those days. It gets hard sometimes trying not to beat myself up, while also having to accurately critique my physique when I look in the mirror. Tough rope to walk...and I can honestly say I am extremely hard on myself. Perhaps a little too hard at times...
I was pretty tired by the time I had to workout, which I wasn't prepared for. However, I was pleased with my weights on almost all my lifts so I guess I pushed through better than I thought I would. I would have loved to do another bicep exercise, but my forearms were about to explode. And the arthritis in my hands right now hurts like hell from gripping the weights. I wouldn't be surprised if I were in a wheelchair by the age of 45, hip replacement at 50, and needing a diaper by 52. The 'ol machine feels a little rusty some days.
Workout:
Reverse, close grip pull-backs 4 x 10
Wide grip lat pull-down 3 x 10
Bent over BB row 4 x 10-12
Single arm lat pull-down 3 x 10 each
Rear flys 3 x 10-12
Lying BB curls 4 x 12
Alternating curls 3 x 10 each
Right now I am eating, drinking coffee, and yet still about to fall sleep mid-bite. I might choke on my chicken. When my head hits the pillow tonight I will go into a coma and enjoy every second of it. Sadly, I will force myself to stay up and watch the Office and Jersey Shore. I know I know, but it makes me feel normal....which is important.
Tomorrow needs to be a better day....for the sake of me and the people around me. Ryan is a patient man right now and is probably dying to go to spring training. I don't blame him. I should be locked up in a padded room everyday between 2:00 and 4:00....
Here's to a new day...
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